As It Is
I guess I shouldn’t have contacted her at work, but it’s where she was and I needed her. Catching that demon was high priority, and the Slayer is usually the one for a job like that. Thought at first that it was some kind of undercover thing she was doing, but it’s really what she is now. Damn it, should have told her we were catching the demon to tag, but I thought that would be obvious. My mistake, but in the end it didn’t change a thing. Was it my imagination, or did she used to be more competent?
She’s tinier than I remember. Not just shorter, frailer too. I know she has the Slayer strength, but she looks like a good strong blast of wind could blow her over. And I really had remembered her as beautiful. She’s pretty enough, cute, but not a beauty. Doesn’t hold a candle to Sam.
I had been so worried about seeing her again, wondering if the old feelings were well and truly gone. Well, there’s nothing there. No attraction, not even jealousy. I must admit I was floored a bit by finding her with the vampire. But it wasn’t jealousy. Disgust would be a better term. I can’t believe she went from me to it. Whoops, that sounds like my pride talking. But really. Spike.
I gave her an out. I offered to kill it. She didn’t want me to. She has feelings for it, obviously. I’m surprised she didn’t realize about the eggs sooner. She must have a blind spot there.
Sorry to see Willow going through a hard time. She was always a decent kid. Xander was helpful, as always. I think Dawn’s warming up to me.
But Buffy. I expected many things from seeing Buffy.
I didn’t expect to pity her.